It's pretty hard to stay an upbeat and happy person all the time... This year, however, I seem to have a harder and harder time doing this on a day to day basis. I live each day trying to not only glorify God by what I do, but also to uplift others by having a positive attitude in almost every aspect of what I do. I don't do things in a fake manner; I simply find my joy in God when I need it most.
However, recently I seem to be discontent with almost everything. Don't get me wrong, I love my life, but I think all my stress is starting to get to me. I have been trying my hardest to stay level headed and on top of things, but I really do start breaking down when I hold it all in for so long. It may be because I haven't had much of a break... or maybe it's something else. I'm not really sure anymore.
*Sigh*I keep using the word 'but' a lot lately..... I don't know.... This is all so confusing, I really wanted to post something to sort out my feelings and possibly feel better.... but(yes, i had to use that word again) I don't even have words to describe anything anymore...
This is definitely not the first time I've felt like this... I must say, when I go up... every down gets lower. And all I can do is to ride it out, pray, and thank God that I still have the right mind about me to stay on this earth and hopefully share my love for him to others... Simply because I DO love him so much just for who he is.
Well, before I use all the words I know, I better stop for the night.
May God bless you all, bring you many blessings as Thanksgiving rolls around, and may you each have ups that are much greater than any down you may have ever faced before.
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