Do you ever have times where you just feel "off your game"? Well I'm feeling it tonight strangely. Honestly, I kind of feel like crawling in bed, reading a book, crying, drinking tea until I can't drink any more, and then just staying there for weeks on end. And as annoying as these feelings can be sometimes, I know that it is something that I have, and continue to overcome each time it begins to set on. While I'm sure a large majority of this is coming from hormone levels and being tired from various things, it got me to thinking about how it this is a perfect example of needing God to fill you up, especially when the things of this world can make you feel so empty (for no reason) sometimes.
I know that I am happier and more content with where I am in my life now and in my relationship with Christ than I was a mere month and a half ago. Things aren't going badly, in fact, I've really been enjoying my schedule (even though it looks like it will be getting pretty hectic within the next month already). Me feeling empty and a little displaced has nothing to do with the things I have.... actually, it does if you think about it... It helps to see that regardless of how well life can be going, and the things that you have in your life, you can still feel lost if you don't feel at one with Christ.
The last time I wrote one of my longer posts I mentioned that I did not understand how Christ can fill my emptiness. But today, I can completely understand it. Not because I truly understand how someone I've never met face-to-face die to take my place out of love for me, but because I have been able to experience God's grace in my life. To understand God, you have to understand His grace that He covers us with. We should ask for his forgiveness not expecting a certain amount of grace to be poured out of a supply that is simply for each individual that we think will eventually run out. No, grace ABOUNDS to cover our sins against God.
I always knew that God covered us in grace, but it never really struck me as something "that" important to experience. In fact, I could tell others time and again, when they were struggling with forgiving themselves for a sin in their life that they need to ask for God's grace because He loves them unconditionally, but I never believed it myself and accepted the grace in my life. Beth Moore mentioned, from the Ragamuffin Gospel that we tell others about grace like handing out brochures to places we have never been before because many of us talk about grace, but we have never experienced grace ourselves. That statement really hit home with me.... It's true, how can we tell someone about something we haven't done/experienced in our lives? It's nearly impossible! At least to talk about it in a way that is meaningful that is!
Accepting grace and asking for grace are two very different things. We can ask without receiving, but you can't receive without asking either. So remember to both ask AND receive God's grace!
